Word on the street is that I got a job interview. I applied at Costco a month ago and I just got a call today to schedule an interview which is going to be Tuesday. I’m not sure I would have got an interview on my own since I have no work history for the past 9 years but I happen to know someone who is a manager there and we actually worked together at KFC so he knows I am a good little worker bee.

I have been fumbling around with my life for the past 8 months and I just need a change. I had dreams of running my own business but right now that’s not going to be my number one goal. Right now I just need to do something that is going to make me feel good about myself and I feel that having a job will do that for me, at the least it will supply me with money to pay my bills.

I mean, I have been trying to keep at my own thing but it’s just not working out and I feel like most people look at me and think, um get a job and then you would have money. I mean, it just seems like an easy answer but yet it has taken so much for me to decide to do it. For one I was dead set on not having a real job ever again, you know, just working for myself but since I am lonely and depressed that just is not going so well for me. I just need someone else to be accountable to. I need to shake things up a bit.

I feel like I have been cooped up in a small apartment or house for the past 10 years and I just want out. I want to be out in the world, I want to meet new people, I want to give people service with a cheesy smile and I want to feel connected in some way to something else that isn’t all sad, stale and stinky like my life seems to be. I just want out of my own head!

anyway, thats the scoop for now. I have some juice about my mom but I am much too tired to type it and it seems like it wouldn’t really fit in here, like a side dish of fried chicken when the meal is meatloaf, just too much meat for one meal, it’d upset my stomach for sure.