I spent three hours today trying to write but I just kept veering so far off topic I had to start over. I have been having really bad anxiety this past week. I’ve been holding back tears and I don’t know exactly why. I actually bailed on friends the other day because I just needed to go cry, it was fucking embarrassing but I don’t know how to deal. I’m really hurt inside.

I really want to write something deep right now but after deleting 30 minutes of typing over and over I think I will sleep on it and see about trying again tomorrow. Maybe I will dig up an old draft of something I never published…